Hello all, i just want to share something with you. i dnt know should i share it or not. but i sat to write. something diffrent is happening with me. i dont know why but its happening. all the time i am living in a fear, scarceness, uneasiness. i feel very sad and alone me always. i want to cry loudly all the time. i just realy dont know why. i am feeling that shortly i am going to die, feeling like i am going to mad. i am finding me absolutely alone. i dont want to live like this otherwise shortly i will be mad totally. can anyone help me?

Why... Why... Why...???

Why it is happening with me? Why I have to leave everything always? Why people leave me alone, whom I love most? Why... Why... Why...??? She is going to leave me forever... She is going in that world... From where nobody come back ever... She is going to leave me forever... Can it not possible that she couldn't go to leave me? Can it not possible that she will be with me always? Why it happens with me all the time? Why she has to go to leave me? Why... Why... Why...??? I love her most... In fact I love her more than myself... I want to live with her till my last breath... I want to live with her till end of my life... But she is going to leave me forever... And I know she will not come back ever... Can I not be with her? Can I not live with her forever? Why she has to go now? Why she has to leave me alone now? Why... Why... Why...???

That was a day...

That was a day when I saw you every where, And today I search you in every face... That was a day when I felt your presence every where, And today perhaps I have lost you forever... That was a day when I heard your voice every where, And today I try to get your voice from every sound... That was a day when your fragrance came from the wind, And today I have forgot every smell in my life... That was a day when I loved you lots, And today I have forgot that what love is... That was a day when I was I. And today I have lost myself too...

I want to write something

I want to write something, perhaps everything

but I never want to remember you

I want to live in my dream, perhaps always

but I never want to see you

I also want to cry loudly, perhaps very loudly

but I never want to smile with you

I want to write something

but I never want to write about you

I never want to love you anymore

trust me

I never want to remember you anymore

and for that I can die anytime....

I think only about you

I think only about you...
While I walk alone
or I talk with anyone
I got you arround me....
While I stand somewhere
or I work anywhere
I got your smile arround me....
While I watch something
or I listen anything
I got your voice arround me...
While I sleep at night
or I dream anytime
I think only about you...
When ever I breath
I feel you only
Everytime I feel your smile,
Always I saw you near to me...
I think only about you...
And I think only about you...
Always I try to get the answer, Why?
But I always be fail...
Because that time also
I think only about you...
Perhaps I still love you...

Women...in Men's life'

Today I got this sweet poem from Mr. Ganesh and I felt that I must share it to everyone.

Women...in Men's life'

I was born,
a woman was there to hold me..........
my mother

I grew as a child......
a woman was there to care for me.......to play with me............ 
my sister

I went to school..... 
a woman was there to help me learn........... 
my teacher

I became depress, whenever I lost
a woman was there to offer a shoulder............ 
my wife

I became tough......
a woman was there to melt me............
my daughter

I am dying
a woman is there to absorb me in.............
my motherland

I love you...

I am alone there

But don't know how

I am feeling you also with me...

I am sited in the Balcony of my room

And I am seeing to the moon

But don't know how

You are looking me there...

I want to tell you something

I want to share my feelings with you

I want to tell you perhaps everything

I want to tell you about my works

I want to tell you about my lifes

I want to tell you about my love

(which is only for you)

I want to tell you how I am without you

But don't know how I could say you these...

I don't know how I could live without you

But I know onething only

That I love you most...

And I could never forget you...

I am here Again....

I am here again
I am feeling again
the feeling about you
the feeling about my life
I am here again
and I am feeling you again
it is the queen of hill
and here only
I met with my dream
I am here again
and I am feeling my life again

(when I visted Mussoorie on 03rd October 2008)

The truth...

I don't want to hate you
but I can't love you also
can you tell me how I lost myself?
How the love finished?
Everything was going perfectly
our friendship was going smoothly
suddenly a time came in my life
and the time changed of my life
you know... the truth is that
I want to hate you
but I still love you
and may be I will love you always...

I know you love me...

I know you are playing with me
I know you are joking with me
because I know
you love me lots
because I know
you can't live without me
I know you enjoy to tease me
I know you are making me fool
because I know
you will return back to me a day
because I know
you love me lots
and you know also
I love you lots

(when you told me that you love someone else)

I Want...

I want to write something, perhaps everything
but I never want to remember you
I want to live in my dream, perhaps always
but I never want to see you
I also want to cry loudly, perhaps very loudly
but I never want to smile with you
I want to write something
but I never want to write about you
I never want to love you anymore
trust me
I never want to remember you anymore
and for that I can die anytime....

My Poems....

I think something
and I write that on the page
something meaningless
something emotionless
something expressionless
and I say that
it is my own written poem poem
but can anybody tell me
how can any bunch of words
a meaningless, emotionless word be poem
is it possible
I thing its impossible
but I always write something
and call them my poems
like I just wrote this...
my new poem.....

I write poems for you everyday

I write poems for you everyday
And everyday you come here to see if I were alive.
I write poems for you everyday
While you come back to my life
Who knows perhaps you will never come to me?
Who knows perhaps I will not live more
It is possible that I will forget breathing
But it will never be possible, I will forget you
I write poems for you everyday
I think, someday I will change my future
I think, someday I’ll success to getting your love
I think, someday I will be god
And someday you will with me
I write poems for you everyday
And everyday you come here to see if I were alive...